The Impossible Garden
& The Wildforest
ART & STORIES BY MARICHIT GARCIA
Here is an optimistic plotting of the week's schedule. My personal target is to finish the report by Saturday. Although I know that given the volume and depth of the data I need to analyse, finishing by Saturday is a hope akin to being able to go to the ball with a beautiful new dress -- some magical intervention required.
This morning will be a slow-burn getting-into-the-flow kind of morning. That flow is supposed to be sustainable until Saturday, so I am not rushing it. It will be like a hearth's fire only put to sleep into embers at night but ready to roar and leap in the mornings. This kind of flow is complicated to catch and so I am not letting myself get anxious.
The simpler tasks are listed for the morning. They are mostly loose ends that need cleaning up to get me all set for the real big task ahead : diving deep into the data analysis and beginning the creative writing process for the full final report. It involves a lot of craft work, because that is what I do that makes the difference in the output. That is why I am still able to survive six years after leaving full-time employment. (I have never really harnessed the full power of that skill.)
Expect no painting or any of the usual creative artistic projects. The dayjob is eating up all my productive hours. Whatever hours are left I spend resting and recharging and refilling the well. I gobble up stories though I am not able to make or tell any. That is why I make my notes and calendar pretty instead, because otherwise I just might go mad.
I am not feeling bad though. Not today. Last week was not so bad either. I just feel neutral. Except in the depths of the night when the insomnia strikes and there is an invisible hand squeezing my lonely heart.
I am quite pleased actually that I am able to focus so much better now (thanks to that whole studyblr inspiration, and thanks to the Eggscellent timer app). I expect this week to run even more smoothly. I've even started taking a brain support supplement that was recommended by a friend (it helps optimise the processing of dopamine).
This is almost like a dry-run for an even bigger task waiting after I finish the report. This is a shade of Things shaped into place as I find a much better way to get where I want and need to go.